Being Alone

I'm trying to get the courage to actually post something, but I don't want to come off as being whiny or ungrateful in life. I am lucky to be alive, but there are some of those time where I feel completely defeated in life when it comes to making friends. It just makes me feel so alone in this world, and it doesn't help that it's a very long holiday in Japan. I basically had nothing to do for 5 straight days, and that's painful. All I did was study, shop, and feel depressed after not being able to make a single friend in the course of six months. I actually got a ton of studying done, and did a lot of shopping. Spent a lot of money, but I seem to be getting out of this depression as I am coming back to terms with my life and acknowledging that my life will be alone whether it'd be here in Japan or back in the US. Sometimes it's hard coping especially when I feel rejected, and it brings back a lot of hard feelings from the past. I think I'll feel this way for the rest of my life, but I think the real challenge is how I cope with these feelings and move on.

On a side note, I was walking through Ginza (of course Ginza because that's my favorite place to be! Just kidding...) and I passed by this flower shop school. I picked up a pamphlet, and at the main branch, they offer courses for learning how to flower arrange, and also become a professional. I'm quite interested, so I might sign up to see how it turns out. Hopefully it'll be good.