Sorry for not keeping updated. I guess whenever I feel the need to write is when I'm completely stressed out, and this would be the time. But first, let me start on a good note saying that I had a wonderful time over the new year with my mom and bro. Didn't want to blog about that because they are the ones that mainly read this blog, so I didn't want to do any recaps. So, on with the whole slew of events that are going to happen...
Finally the money was transferred. I can now pay my rent. Stupid idiots from Bank of America. I just wanted to kill them this entire month.
New quarter means new class which means new people. Out of 17 people in the class, 4 are girls. To be honest, I'm in complete guy phobia again. I don't know why. I think it's because one of the guys acts like he likes me who is from Thailand. I have a feeling that he might actually like me, or at least have some interest in me. Oh, even worse, he knows Chinese. He tried talking to me in Chinese which I flatly answered him back in Japanese. Actually, I should have acted dumb and made it look like I didn't know any Chinese at all.
I guess the above point brings me to my next point which is Chinese. Somehow I have become to loathe the sound of Chinese. I can't deal with people speaking Chinese. I think the biggest reason is because I don't want people to know that I can speak Chinese. I don't want people to ridicule me for speaking poor Chinese. I get enough crap from people in Taiwan saying my Chinese is complete crap. I don't want more people to look down upon me. Actually, I think I will be looked down upon my entire life. One, because I am Chinese in Japan. Two, I speak English. Anyway, if anyone wants to bring me crap, bring it. Now, I just have to make sure that my Japanese is fluent. Yes, this is a great motivator. Perhaps this is why I spend countless hours in cafes studying.
I guess I really shouldn't be in shock that the apartment is closing, but it does kind of hit that I do need to move, and within a short amount of time. Turns out that while talking with the caretakers, they mentioned that the current school that owns this apartment complex is closing it down in April. This gives me approximately 2 months to find a decent looking place and find furniture to go with it. I kind of feel like I'm drowning at this point. Oh, and the biggest thing is that I need to find a guarantor in order to make this whole thing work. I'm not even sure where I can get a guarantor as it is a big financial responsibility to be a guarantor. I think I might actually faint at this point because as I can see it, this situation seems impossible. I'm only a student. Perhaps if I were working this would be a different story, but I don't think that many places are going to even want to house a student. Ugh, I feel the more I type, the uglier the story is going to get as these two months pan out into some horrifying experience in finding housing in Japan. God, I think I'm just going to go cry in bed at this point.
Thank you period for making me an emotional wreck at this point. Just great, the worst timing in history. *sigh*
I wish there was something I can say, I don't even know anything about Japanese housing T__T. *huggles* Can your dad, mom, or someone in your family be your guarantor even though they're not in Japan?
ReplyDeleteAll I can find is the Japanese craigslist, I don't know anything T__T I wish I can help.
http://tokyo.craigslist.jp/apa/
T____T I wish there's more I can do T____T
And I feel your pain on Chinese. I've started to pretend I don't know any of Chinese or Japanese when I'm out and about at times 'cause the students want you to be Japanese when you're not (just because I can speak it better than them, doesn't mean I'm Japanese, and just because I'm not Japanese doesn't mean I'm not good enough to have a conversation with), and in Chinese at the supermarket... if I'm not careful, I can get ripped off =_=; *sigh*
Next time someone asks you if you understand Chinese, cock your head to the side and look at them with a puzzled expression ^__^ Always works ^,^! Too late now with the Thai guy, but there'll be other chances. People will always be judgmental and cruel, that's just how it goes. Just have to endure it for now. Those people will eventually meet their match later on in life and regret being asses. It's just a matter of time.
I hope things work out for you, I really do. You don't need any more stress than what you already have. *huggles*