Hakuna Mata

Ok, not my motto, but certainly need just something to make me clear my head. (Thanks, Lion King XD)

Certainly a lack of updates lately because it'd just be me throwing fits and ranting about how depressed I was. So, I don't want to delve into that anymore because it's pointless. Though, I am feeling better, and am just going to take things as it comes. It's certainly not really a situation that I'd like, but there isn't anything much to really change it, so all I can do at the moment is learn what I can, and hope that I will be able to make something out of this. I know I've kind of secluded myself in depressing times, but I guess it's how I deal with it. I'm always grateful to those who are always there for me in these times.

I've been finding it harder to blog lately. I always wonder what I should be writing about or what to say in times like these. Life hasn't really been all that interesting to blog about, or probably I just don't want to reveal too much truth about my life. I always feel like I have to think a lot about what I want to write about that I end of not writing anything at all. Perhaps it's just timing with these types of things. Lately, I get caught in a moment, and usually want to write about it, but when that moment passes when I get home, I don't want to write about them anymore because it has already passes, so I don't want to go through the trouble of typing out every detail that happened.

Perhaps lately everything that I've been experiencing I'd like to keep to myself. I will say that it has been a very long time where I have felt I have been accepted by people. They don't shun me because I speak poor Chinese. They want me to go with them places. Most of the time when I meet people it feels like bird meets fish, and bird flies away leaving fish all by itself. However with these girls, it's not that way. Too bad the Taiwanese girl is going back in December, but it seems the girl from China is going to be staying for a while, so hopefully we'll be able to do a lot of things together. Even if we don't, I think I will cherish the time right now.

Life isn't all that bad at the moment. There is still a lot to be done and still some worries, but I'm going to take it as it comes with less anxiety. Though, not in a hakuna mata way. (Sorry, Lion King XD)