Being Alone

I'm trying to get the courage to actually post something, but I don't want to come off as being whiny or ungrateful in life. I am lucky to be alive, but there are some of those time where I feel completely defeated in life when it comes to making friends. It just makes me feel so alone in this world, and it doesn't help that it's a very long holiday in Japan. I basically had nothing to do for 5 straight days, and that's painful. All I did was study, shop, and feel depressed after not being able to make a single friend in the course of six months. I actually got a ton of studying done, and did a lot of shopping. Spent a lot of money, but I seem to be getting out of this depression as I am coming back to terms with my life and acknowledging that my life will be alone whether it'd be here in Japan or back in the US. Sometimes it's hard coping especially when I feel rejected, and it brings back a lot of hard feelings from the past. I think I'll feel this way for the rest of my life, but I think the real challenge is how I cope with these feelings and move on.

On a side note, I was walking through Ginza (of course Ginza because that's my favorite place to be! Just kidding...) and I passed by this flower shop school. I picked up a pamphlet, and at the main branch, they offer courses for learning how to flower arrange, and also become a professional. I'm quite interested, so I might sign up to see how it turns out. Hopefully it'll be good.

Spring Break

I think spring break is really too long. I don't have much motivation to do any studying, even though I really should be. However, I have a high motivation to work out. I think I feel guilty from pigging out on all this good food, that I feel that I really need to move around or else I feel like I can't eat all this good food. Well, there's another motivation, which is spring is here, and I really want to look good in my spring clothes that I'm starting to buy. I just blew through a bunch of money in 2 days... let's see... I bought 2 pieces of clothes, 2 movies that were half off (Well, one of the movies was supposed to be original price, but since the sticker for half off was still on it, I was able to get it for half off), a new DS game (New Mario Brothers), and a nice dinner (about 100USD). Yeah... I can see the money just flitter off... Must get some motivation to save money now. Actually, a nice job is what I really need.

Anyway, lately I think I feel better, which I think is due to working out. I think I got kind of bored, and wasn't sure what to do with my time. Now working out takes up some time in the morning. I went swimming today, which makes me feel really good even though I know I'll be really sore. Actually, I was already sore yesterday in the abs from doing crunches. Now I'm even sorer because of swimming, but it feels really good to workout. Great stress reliever. Feel great. Life is good... perhaps a little too good... Must now get the motivation to study. Yes... study... maybe not... lol.

No Internet

I'm without internet until the 14th next month, so I will be checking stuff at an internet cafe. If it's an emergency, please call my cell phone.

Ordering furniture...

I ordered my bed and desk. My desk will come will come on the 29th this month, but since the bed is quite popular... it won't come until April 24th... Oh well. I tried out my futon on the floor, so it should be fine. My futon is pretty thick considering it's pretty cheap.

I kind of wanted to pay by credit card. Actually, I got kind of scared when I got emails back when I didn't order yet. So, when I thought I got the emails, I thought the order went through when it really didn't. While I was waiting for a representative, the emails said that I inputted my credit card, so I was kind of relieved. Anyway, I decided to order by phone then since I was calling. I was really nervous talking to the representative, but she spoke slowly so I was able to order what I wanted. I tried asking about paying by credit card, but since the Japanese credit cards are different than the American ones, I couldn't. Well, I got practice talking in Japanese, which is a good thing. I'll just have to pay by cash when the stuff comes. I'll have to assemble the desk myself, but that's okay because there isn't much to assemble. It's the bed that's more troublesome, so I'm paying 6000\ to have that assembled so that I don't have to do that by myself. I'll have to think of other furniture to make my place nicer, but first these basics are essential. Everything else can come later.

Anyway, I'm excited. Plus, I practiced Japanese, so I'm happy. All a good days work. Now... to start packing.... >.>;

Taking a break from blogging

I'm completely consumed in moving, that I won't have much time to blog for the time being. I'll be sure to get pictures up after I move.

I'm moving!!!

After this huge ordeal, I can officially say I'm moving. All I need to do is sign the contract this Saturday, and I'm all set to move to my new place! Well, I still need to pack, but I have a home!!! I need to buy furniture and some other miscellaneous stuff, but that can wait. I think the most important thing is buying a nice bed and desk. The other stuff I can buy later. There's a lot to do, but it's all worth it.

Anyway... I have to calculate how much more money I need to spend. I just paid a huge chunk of money, so I need to figure out how much I need for furniture and for extra curricular activities. I think with the current money I have, I'll only last another 2 months. We'll see. I do want to sign up for a newspaper subscription because I have been glued literally to the newspaper for the past 2 months. Well, I like doing the puzzles too, but I make sure that I read about every current event in Asia and in the US (excluding what happens in Middle East). I'll have to ask my mom if it's okay to subscribe. Hopefully it'll be okay.

Anyway, off to bed. I should really start going to bed earlier...

I found it...

I found the apartment I want to live in. I seemed to have somewhat convinced my dad at how great this apartment is. I didn't focus on kitchen, but focused on the bathroom. The Meguro Princess bathroom was really just very uncomfortable. The sink was chipped, and when I opened the toilet, the bottom was brown. Actually, the bathroom was starting to slightly rust, which made even more unbearable Even though I can be a little messy in the bathroom, I at least keep it pretty tidy. Which reminds me, I have a lot of house cleaning to do tomorrow. I'm probably not going anywhere tomorrow except cleaning my house. It's been dirty too long, and I have a lot of laundry to do. I've been so busy that I haven't had time to properly take care of my house. Tomorrow is definitely house cleaning day no matter how bad my back hurts right now. It's got to be done, and I will probably feel loads better after cleaning. (Sorry for the tangent)

As for the other apartment, the bathroom is so clean, it feels like it was just recently renovated. Also, there's a nice kitchen, a space to put the washer and fridge. Actually, the washer has a sliding door to hide the washer. The shoe closet is nice, though I need to figure out where to put my boots because there isn't space to put boots, but I'll find someplace. The closet it absolutely something I will advocate. Lots of space, and there's space to put my suitcase and the extra comforter I have on the floor or top of the closet. Overall, it's really a nice place, and the base price for it is 85000 yen (without management fee. With management fee, it's 91000). Seriously, it doesn't get better than that. For a mansion type like this one, they easily start from 95000-100000, and adding on the management fee hikes the price. Both the agent and I were so surprised that we immediately filled out the application form. I don't care if I have to walk 6 min. That's so much better than 15 min. Actually, for this apartment, I have to pay 2 months deposit and 2 months thank you money. I figured if I stayed there for the entire two years, it's 7000 yen a month extra, so I guess technically this place costs 98000, which is much cheaper than the one I found in either Mita or Shirokane (126000 yen per month with no thank you money).

Omg, if I am able to stay in this place, I will be so happy. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, though, because it still has to be approved by big honcho who will be coming Mon with two other people. The area is already approved, so all that needs approving is the apartment. I can't wait until Mon. I really want them to see this place.