Quick post...

Just posting before I go to the gym. Well, I've worried a lot of people. It's tough being alone at times. I sometimes hate it, but I'm starting to find activities like flower arranging. I can't wait to to go to the first lesson. I'm going to try out Tai Chi. Hopefully I'll be able to actually move in Tai Chi. Seems kind of scary. Oh well. Doesn't hurt to try once.

In other news, I want to buy a Wii. There's a new Mario Galaxy coming out that looks really awesome.  Wish I had a Wii. Actually, I really want to play the new Super Mario Brothers for Wii as well. Oh well, I guess it'll have to wait.

Another new blog...

I opened up a new blog strictly in Japanese for writing everyday Japanese. Love the emoticons! I think that's partially why I opened up a Japanese one... lol. I think I'll write about everyday Japanese life there because it's an easier topic to write about than here. I guess this blog will be another punching bag for me. Originally I wanted to write more about my troubles learning Japanese, but I guess it has become more of an emotional outlet because the important people in my life read this, and I can't always talk to them, so I write here. Though, I guess I will start to write more again. It's taken me a while to get emotionally stable enough to write again. So many times I wanted to just lash out on life, but I held it in. Hopefully from here on out, I will be able to write about the happier things in life.

Anyway, for those interested... my new blog in complete Japanese!

Being Alone

I'm trying to get the courage to actually post something, but I don't want to come off as being whiny or ungrateful in life. I am lucky to be alive, but there are some of those time where I feel completely defeated in life when it comes to making friends. It just makes me feel so alone in this world, and it doesn't help that it's a very long holiday in Japan. I basically had nothing to do for 5 straight days, and that's painful. All I did was study, shop, and feel depressed after not being able to make a single friend in the course of six months. I actually got a ton of studying done, and did a lot of shopping. Spent a lot of money, but I seem to be getting out of this depression as I am coming back to terms with my life and acknowledging that my life will be alone whether it'd be here in Japan or back in the US. Sometimes it's hard coping especially when I feel rejected, and it brings back a lot of hard feelings from the past. I think I'll feel this way for the rest of my life, but I think the real challenge is how I cope with these feelings and move on.

On a side note, I was walking through Ginza (of course Ginza because that's my favorite place to be! Just kidding...) and I passed by this flower shop school. I picked up a pamphlet, and at the main branch, they offer courses for learning how to flower arrange, and also become a professional. I'm quite interested, so I might sign up to see how it turns out. Hopefully it'll be good.

Spring Break

I think spring break is really too long. I don't have much motivation to do any studying, even though I really should be. However, I have a high motivation to work out. I think I feel guilty from pigging out on all this good food, that I feel that I really need to move around or else I feel like I can't eat all this good food. Well, there's another motivation, which is spring is here, and I really want to look good in my spring clothes that I'm starting to buy. I just blew through a bunch of money in 2 days... let's see... I bought 2 pieces of clothes, 2 movies that were half off (Well, one of the movies was supposed to be original price, but since the sticker for half off was still on it, I was able to get it for half off), a new DS game (New Mario Brothers), and a nice dinner (about 100USD). Yeah... I can see the money just flitter off... Must get some motivation to save money now. Actually, a nice job is what I really need.

Anyway, lately I think I feel better, which I think is due to working out. I think I got kind of bored, and wasn't sure what to do with my time. Now working out takes up some time in the morning. I went swimming today, which makes me feel really good even though I know I'll be really sore. Actually, I was already sore yesterday in the abs from doing crunches. Now I'm even sorer because of swimming, but it feels really good to workout. Great stress reliever. Feel great. Life is good... perhaps a little too good... Must now get the motivation to study. Yes... study... maybe not... lol.

No Internet

I'm without internet until the 14th next month, so I will be checking stuff at an internet cafe. If it's an emergency, please call my cell phone.

Ordering furniture...

I ordered my bed and desk. My desk will come will come on the 29th this month, but since the bed is quite popular... it won't come until April 24th... Oh well. I tried out my futon on the floor, so it should be fine. My futon is pretty thick considering it's pretty cheap.

I kind of wanted to pay by credit card. Actually, I got kind of scared when I got emails back when I didn't order yet. So, when I thought I got the emails, I thought the order went through when it really didn't. While I was waiting for a representative, the emails said that I inputted my credit card, so I was kind of relieved. Anyway, I decided to order by phone then since I was calling. I was really nervous talking to the representative, but she spoke slowly so I was able to order what I wanted. I tried asking about paying by credit card, but since the Japanese credit cards are different than the American ones, I couldn't. Well, I got practice talking in Japanese, which is a good thing. I'll just have to pay by cash when the stuff comes. I'll have to assemble the desk myself, but that's okay because there isn't much to assemble. It's the bed that's more troublesome, so I'm paying 6000\ to have that assembled so that I don't have to do that by myself. I'll have to think of other furniture to make my place nicer, but first these basics are essential. Everything else can come later.

Anyway, I'm excited. Plus, I practiced Japanese, so I'm happy. All a good days work. Now... to start packing.... >.>;

Taking a break from blogging

I'm completely consumed in moving, that I won't have much time to blog for the time being. I'll be sure to get pictures up after I move.